Born from a profound past life regression and narrated by the reincarnated soul who once lived as Tchaikovsky, the book reveals not only the intimate truth of an exceptionally sensitive human being, but also profound insight into the great questions of human existence: the meaning of life and suffering on Earth, how a soul’s path is shaped, the interplay of destiny, karma and free will, and the deeper purpose of the soul’s journey.

Inside Tchaikovsky’s inner world
Structured in 20 chapters, the narrative retraces the essential stages of his life: childhood, musical awakening, emotional wounds, Conservatory years, the creation of his masterpieces, and the defining experiences that shaped him. At the heart of the memoir lies his deepest conflict: a feminine soul living in a masculine body, a source of lifelong pain portrayed with honesty and metaphysical clarity. His marriage, dramatic love stories, and the special bond with his patroness, Nadezhda von Meck, are revealed with emotional transparency.

Being Pyotr Ilyich also approaches a great mystery of music history — the question of whether Tchaikovsky died by suicide or cholera — offering a spiritual perspective on the family secrets, inner suffering, and soul lessons behind his final days. It also reveals, with exceptional emotional depth and tenderness, the story of the great love of his life.

The book also opens a rare window onto the composer’s creative universe, revealing the deeper truth behind the music that marked history, including works such as Romeo and Juliet, Piano Concerto No. 1, The Nutcracker and Symphony No. 6 – Pathétique.

A life story that becomes a study of the human soul
Yet this book is far more than the story of one extraordinary human being. Through Tchaikovsky’s life story and the healing process from which this memoir emerged, it becomes a path towards understanding questions that belong to every soul: why we suffer, how emotional wounds form, what destiny really means, and how healing becomes possible.

Moving beyond abstract spirituality into lived inner experience, the book touches on themes widely explored today in both psychology and spirituality: self-love as the foundation of healing and relationships; the inner child and early emotional imprinting; fear of abandonment; soul contracts; family karma and psychogenealogy; the way behavioural patterns are formed and carried across lifetimes; the roots of emotional trauma and its long-term impact; the relationship with the Higher Self; the evolving relationship between the soul and the Divine; and the link between blocked emotions and physical illness.

But perhaps above all, this book is an invitation to reflect on the deeper purpose of human suffering. In this sense, Being Pyotr Ilyich is a book about love, healing, forgiveness, and the search for meaning in human existence.

“I was stunned… Fascinated too, because Chris Nielsen’s text turned out to be more than a simple account of the life of the emblematic composer, it was above all a testimony of an appealing authenticity. (…) An impregnating work to which it was difficult to remain insensitive.”

Daniel Meurois
International best-selling author

How this book came into being
This book was born from more than twenty regression therapy sessions conducted over the course of a year and a half, amounting to nearly one hundred hours of trance work. The recordings made after each session were then transcribed almost word-for-word, with only very light editorial intervention, principally to remove repetitions and allow the narrative to unfold with greater clarity and grace.

What remains is the essential material itself: a faithful rendering of the story, together with the revealing answers received throughout a profound healing process.

The foreword is written by Daniel Meurois, international bestselling author.